Currently in the world, Australia sits at rank number 49 for suicides per 100,000 citizens. With teen suicides becoming more and more painfully common in the news and media, it’s time that questions start to be asked. Here, we delve into the depths of the inner psyche workings behind a young girl who’s suffered from mental illness for a long period of her youth, and life.
Paige, an 18 year old girl who resides within the Sutherland shire spoke extensively to me about her issues and troubles, from her early days of high school up until now, highlighting her struggles to cope with her feelings, and the struggles to express her thoughts. “It honestly just seemed never ending, I felt like every day something else would stab me in the side”…. “I mean, some days i would feel a bit better and think I’m making progress, but when you’re suffering from these disorders, one thing will set you off and send you spiralling back down”. As i spoke to her, you could see the emotion dwelling within her eyes as she told me of her experiences.
“One of my biggest regrets in life is the decisions to harm myself”, she said. “It’s left me with scars, scars on my wrist and my legs that I wish did not exist, but at the same time they are kinda like a reminder I guess, a reminder that I’m past that and I’m never going back” I noticed a slight smile flicker across her face as she said that. Growing up in a broken home, she experienced a large amount of neglect, which she believes played a major role in her troubled days in her youth.
It then occurred to me, what would people say to this story? How would those involved in her life react to this, not knowing everything she’s been through? And as seen through our second speaker from the video who wished to remain anonymous, it’s shocking. “It makes you feel bad almost for not noticing these things, when you go through trouble yourself you’re generally automatically on the lookout for others in need, but once you know about it, you’re going to make sure they’re okay all the time, you don’t want anyone feeling the way you did”.
So it seems that those suffering, come together in their own support network. However, is that enough? I don’t think so. As a personal sufferer myself, these stories hit hard, and I can only hope it hits the general public hard enough too, enough to make a change.